🌻 you WILL regret it
🌻 Whats the point of eating something that will be forgotten in 2 days
🌻do you want your already fat thighs to grow
🌻It will pause your progress
🌻Are you really going to throw all your progress away for something that tastes good for 5mins
🌻Maybe youlle be a cm closer to fitting into those shorts
Sometimes self care is studying for that test. Sometimes it’s cleaning your room. Sometimes it’s having that conversation you’re afraid of having, confront that person you’re afraid to confront. Sometimes it’s not just wrapping yourself up in a blanket and relaxing. Sometimes instead, it’s taking action against the problem.
Unpopular opinion, but yeah.
-Having to stand up slowly to avoid nearly passing out, yet you still pass out sometimes
-One days low weight is a triggering high weight the next day
-Who needs food when you can survive off of water and the sheer pain of isolation?
-The jeans you bought last month don’t fit anymore due to weight loss/gain
-A closet full of cute clothes, but you only wear baggy pants and sweaters
-Freezing during the summer
-The bathroom is your new bff since you’ve pretty much shoved all of your friends away
-Short hair cuts and beanies to hide hair loss
-No eye makeup ever because purging will ruin it
-Bloating after a little bit of food
-Puffy cheeks and headaches from purging
-Debilitating cramps from laxatives, so bad that you might think you’re dying
-Your daily mood decided by that wretched number
-All day spent planning your intake
-Being near trigger foods making you cry or binge or both
-No one notices your problem because you’re of average weight/ wear baggy clothes
-Pro ana makes you nauseous, but at the same time there’s something in you that wants to follow those dumb “ABC diets”
-Gaining weight is a death sentence
-All of your other mental illnesses get amplified
I’ll add more eventually
“You’re so pretty today. It looks like you haven’t eaten in two weeks tho.” And just like that I knew, I’m doing the right thing.
Me lmaoo 😂
Knowing that I gained all my weight back makes me feel as if I have lost control of everything. I can’t focus, I’m frustrated and distant. I can’t even stand to see myself naked, I’m disgusting.
What doesn’t kill you gives you a lot of unhealthy coping mechanisms and a really dark sense of humor.
⚪️ stressed
⚪️ depressed
⚪️ dead inside
🔘 all of the above
Me: ugh im like so hungry
Ana: drink some water ;)
Me: im actually craving something
Ana: like what
Me: idk like waffles a hamburger cherries pies bananas cheddar pasta pizza bread jam sushi yakisoba ramen 2 whole coconuts 5 truckLOADS OF CHIPS 50 BASKETS OF FRENCH FRIES THE KITCHEN SINK THE NEIGHBOR’S FIRST BORN CHILD and a little bit of ketchup
Ana: … bitch what the fuck
Why did I laugh?
